Apologizing

I don't quite know what an apology even means to me. I feel like I don't get apologies enough from certain people. Sometimes all I need to hear is sorry and then everything will be okay. It makes me feel better to hear those two words, but it just isn't said enough in today's world. Either that or it isn't actually meant. That's a problem that I am having right now. I say sorry way too much. I feel like my apologies are just empty words. They don't hold any value even when I mean it the most.

I think the real problem is that I hate confrontation. If I am in an argument with someone I always end up saying I'm sorry just because I don't want them to be mad at me. I know this isn't the right thing to do, but I have the right intentions. I don't want anyone to feel bad or like everything is their fault, but sometimes other people need to say their sorry too.

Like I said, I never hear I'm Sorry. I just want those two little words to be said to me. I want the words to hold value. I don't want an empty promise. I want a genuine apology that is said because someone means it and not because they want the fight to be over.