My Best Friend

Okay so, I have a lot of built up anger inside of me at the moment and I'm going to let it out right now. Brittany is my best friend. I have only known her for a few months, but we are so close that you would think that we had know each other all our lives. I share everything with her even stuff that I'm afraid to tell my family. If something goes wrong in my life she is the first person that I call. She helps me get through everything and I don't think people understand that. We spend a lot of time together especially on the weekends. It's weird if we don't see each other every day. We aren't dependent on each other so I don't view it as a bad friendship, but other people do.

I have other friends telling me that she is a bad influence on me, but they don't know her like I do. They think they know what they are talking about, but they don't. They only get to hear my side of the story so of course she seems like a bad person. When I want to complain about something that is all they hear. They don't get to hear about the stuff that I say or do that was also wrong. We are both at fault, but they don't see that. I make my own decisions and I can be friends with whoever I want to be friends with. How can a friendship be bad for you? I guess that is what I just don't understand. How can someone who is always there for you and who cares about you so much be a bad thing? I don't get it.

Everyone tells me to get away. That I am just hurting myself. I know we get in our fights, but we always work it out. There is never a relationship that is perfect and without a few disagreements. We fight, but we work it out. I would do anything for her as well as many of my other friends. I think they are afraid that I am being take advantage of. I know I do a little too much for people sometimes, but I just don't like to upset people. I know people do take advantage of the situation sometimes, but it doesn't always bother me because sooner or later they return the favor.

My friends say that they are just afraid for me. They think that when I am off on my own without my best friend that I am not going to be able to handle it. They think that it will tear me apart. I'm not going to lie, it probably will mess me up for a while, but I will get over it eventually. If she's a real friend she will still be there when we are both off at college. If I don't see some people after high school then I will learn to get over. I will move on. I'm not dependent on people like some people think I am. I think for myself and make all my own decisions. I wish everyone could see that. I wish they could see things the way I see them, but apparently my perspective is wrong.