Blog 14: Getting Closer

I think I am slowly starting to realize that graduation is getting closer and closer. I was driving home with my friend Mason and we began talking about how I don't manage my time well. He told me that I was gonna have trouble in college. As if realizing that we were actually going to be our own wasn't enough, we began talking about how we will most likely never talk to most of our fellow seniors after graduation. We will have to make new friends to rely on and it is very scary to think about. I am a social person. I can't survive without a bunch of people without me. I know it hasn't hit me that I will be leaving this school soon and when it does, the tears will start rolling.

Blog 13: Blackmail and Threats

I feel like my parents attempt to blackmail me all the time. They don't actually intend to do anything if I don't do what they want, they just use scare tactics to motivate me. They threaten to ground me or take something away if I don't get good enough grades or if I don't get something done in the time frame that they have given me. I wasn't allowed to go out with friends or even leave the house until I had completed all scholarship and college applications. That was a pain. But my friends also try to use these tactics in order to get what they want. I have had a friend tell me to do something and if I didn't, they would release information about me that didn't need to be known to my parents or a friend.

Blog 12: No Freedom

I don't think my mom quite understands that I am about to be an adult and be on my own. She has given me a little bit of freedom, but she hasn't realized that I need to be able to do things on my own and I need to know how to do it soon. I will graduate soon and be moving to a different city. I need to know how to get back and forth by myself if she plans om me visiting unless SHE plans on coming up to Western or Louisville and bringing me home every weekend. I don't think she would enjoy that so I really wish she would just let me go. All i want to do is take one day to visit Western on my own. Is that really that difficult? it isn't even that far. Hopefully she will lighten up soon.